I’m still here, but I’ve thought about it
Not being here.
Driving on an overpass, how quick to jump
This too shall pass.
Looking at the bottle of pain pills, easy
Takes the pain away.
Looking into the future, it’s not clear
Sadly it’s filled with fear.
Injured from years Dr’s say neglect
And yet
I’m writing this. Am I the strong friend
The one no one checks on. Sometimes
take it day by day, telling the enemy go
away . I don’t want none of your time,
I got mine and I’m gonna be fine.
I learned of a local news reporter today
Who took her life, didn’t know her but
Tears automatically.
On a random night in ICU , i was there
Asking God to take me away
The toughest headache, the sharpest nerve
Pain, more drugs came, the feeling left
For a second.
The point is I’ve been there no judgement
What gets me through?
I’ve asked forgiveness for the wretched
Person i was to merge with the grown up
Man i am today.
Music also has been a great relief, songs
That have preached to me, spoken to me
One such song is the title to this freewrite
“Hold up the light” 3 amazing voices I
Heard talking to me and i thought
Maybe I’m the light? Is this what I’m here
For? Love, Light ,Fight for what’s right?
IDK life is crazy man. You still got me.
I ask for guidance Universe. let me be your
Vessel. I ask humbly to be a light in this
World of darkness…..
©️MarcusCaesar
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