in the middle of my daze
confidence fades; and I feel like low
do what I love, a quick message to
up above. Save my life tonight
sure of my glass; this wine not enough
appearing tough, fading fast
I watch my life just pass, foot heavy on the gas
I wish for romantic love, a second message
to up above. save my life tonight
Please.
2022©️MarcusCaesar
in the middle of my daze
confidence fades; and I feel like low
do what I love, a quick message to
up above. Save my life tonight
sure of my glass; this wine not enough
appearing tough, fading fast
I watch my life just pass, foot heavy on the gas
I wish for romantic love, a second message
to up above. save my life tonight
Please.
2022©️MarcusCaesar
It’s not my fault
I didn’t do it
I can’t take your pain away
my color of my skin
has nothing to do with the pain you’re in
dude
write it out, muck about
don’t take out my
brother
there’s another shooting
anger is brewing
when will it be enough?
we won’t lie down
no one gave us a crown
or a pedestal you put us on
you show your true colors but God sees above all others
justice will be swift
and you’ll deserve it
or haven’t you heard
it can be changed like this-
*snaps fingers*
©️MarcusCaesar
everyday we get up
rise to the occasion
sometimes it’s amazing
until it’s not.
we try our best
put on our super-hero chest
fake it till you make it
the chain is stronger than you think
i realize everyday it’s how you think
thoughts become things
it’s time to think great thoughts
try it, it’s you.
©️MarcusCaesar
as i writes today
alas troubles aren’t so far away
put my head under the covers
life can bring such druthers
i need my peace
universe please hear me.
©️MarcusCaesar
in the darkest night
you are there
i know this
but I’m scared
can you calm my fears?
©️MarcusCaesar
I’m leaving today
don’t know where
everything’s changed
I’m grown/I’ve grown now.
©️MarcusCaesar
Feels like I’m in the rain
can’t see clear
every time I wipe my eyes something I hold dear
comes to a close
kissing up on my nose trying to keep the pain at bay
want to experience love want to experience success
want to be the best
pressure in my shoulder, I just wanna get over
Wanna fly away
start over begin a new day
life doesn’t work that way I want to be happy OK?
Just want it to stop raining so I can feel
peace.
In my heart in my home
sometimes I don’t want to do it alone
I push people away no wonder they don’t stay
I’m trying as hard as I can giving you the Best that I got
I wish these self-defeating behaviors stop
©️MarcusCaesar
“It’s time for the good times
Forget about the bad times, oh yeah
One day to come together to release the pressure
We need a holiday” – Madonna
on this day nine years ago, i revealed a personal truth to my parents
like pressure off your brain it was needed. My fam is low-key so it wasn’t the
biggest deal to them, but to me my world was a bit lighter . I’m proud. I’m blessed.
ups and downs both abound but I’m still trucking. Haven’t found my forever but
there’s hope. so while people celebrate the holiday of our fallen soldiers, i celebrate
the holiday of my fallen facade, lies I told to belong so long ago.
Selah’
©️MarcusCaesar
I’m still here, but I’ve thought about it
Not being here.
Driving on an overpass, how quick to jump
This too shall pass.
Looking at the bottle of pain pills, easy
Takes the pain away.
Looking into the future, it’s not clear
Sadly it’s filled with fear.
Injured from years Dr’s say neglect
And yet
I’m writing this. Am I the strong friend
The one no one checks on. Sometimes
take it day by day, telling the enemy go
away . I don’t want none of your time,
I got mine and I’m gonna be fine.
I learned of a local news reporter today
Who took her life, didn’t know her but
Tears automatically.
On a random night in ICU , i was there
Asking God to take me away
The toughest headache, the sharpest nerve
Pain, more drugs came, the feeling left
For a second.
The point is I’ve been there no judgement
What gets me through?
I’ve asked forgiveness for the wretched
Person i was to merge with the grown up
Man i am today.
Music also has been a great relief, songs
That have preached to me, spoken to me
One such song is the title to this freewrite
“Hold up the light” 3 amazing voices I
Heard talking to me and i thought
Maybe I’m the light? Is this what I’m here
For? Love, Light ,Fight for what’s right?
IDK life is crazy man. You still got me.
I ask for guidance Universe. let me be your
Vessel. I ask humbly to be a light in this
World of darkness…..
©️MarcusCaesar
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