
telling myself
well run dry
seeing all this beauty
wheels not turning
hopeful that this ends
I’m fire, I’m alive, I’m not giving up!
©️MarcusCaesar
telling myself
well run dry
seeing all this beauty
wheels not turning
hopeful that this ends
I’m fire, I’m alive, I’m not giving up!
©️MarcusCaesar
“It’s time for the good times
Forget about the bad times, oh yeah
One day to come together to release the pressure
We need a holiday” – Madonna
on this day nine years ago, i revealed a personal truth to my parents
like pressure off your brain it was needed. My fam is low-key so it wasn’t the
biggest deal to them, but to me my world was a bit lighter . I’m proud. I’m blessed.
ups and downs both abound but I’m still trucking. Haven’t found my forever but
there’s hope. so while people celebrate the holiday of our fallen soldiers, i celebrate
the holiday of my fallen facade, lies I told to belong so long ago.
Selah’
©️MarcusCaesar
So…….. I’ve been told that this month is Mental Health awareness month. I picked this quote and picture as a message for myself honestly. As a light worker i wanted to share it with you as well, May it bless you. I’m gonna try and post on a regular basis this month, in case y’all missed me 😜
-What are you doing this month to foster supreme mental health?
Luv AllWays,
Marcus Caesar
One month ago today, my job was eliminated. It’s a prime example of be careful of what you ask for or you just might get it. My co-workers and I used to joke about getting paid to stay at home and guess what happened….
It’s a shocker for sure because i’d heard it happen and read of it happening but to see it actually happen in real time? Knocks you on your ass. There were a lot of technical issues that day, but we still didn’t think it was gonna be a Purge situation….
A month later to reflect and here’s the thing…you ready for it? I don’t miss it, I met some great people but being cursed out on a daily basis for something I couldn’t fix was not my ideal work environment. While I wont bash the company I worked for those 2 years because hey I signed up for it and my bills were paid and it literally does me no good and it doesn’t make me feel better. That chapter of my life is done….
What’s next you want to know? World Domination *inserts* evil laugh. Honestly the world is open to me now in a way that I’d never felt before. Should I
I mean the list can go on and on and it’s all thanks to ?!*+%&=@!!!! You know who you are buddy. I’m gonna make sure that the next path I choose is not fear based. That I know for sure.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk
Marcus Caesar
I’m here i shine
I’ve opened up my mind
The possibility to reach people
Through acting and regularly
Contributing to this blog.
Is Miraculous in itself
I’m just starting
I’ll get my voice stronger as to share
Music, purchase a camera as to
Introduce my photography and
Provide content to the masses.
Universe hear me now
Loud and proud
I’m here, I’m queer and i want to
Share joy, give life and smiles
©️MarcusCaesar
There’s a lyric in one of my favorite songs that states “I believe in miracles because it’s a miracle I’m here”. It resonates with me because of its profound truth to my life. Breathe
I thank you Universe for instilling in me a resilience that can only be supernatural. I think long and hard too much honestly about what the world would be without me in it. Breathe
I’ve been inside literally and figuratively because I didn’t think I had much to offer, this person was more talented or this dude’s body looked better. It’s not a “girly” thing. It’s a human thing. Breathe
As I near 40 years on this earth and I am now putting myself out there showing that I’m a presence that won’t be denied, I’m figuring out that THIS is what the universe has wanted from and for me all along. I just had to get outta my own way. Breathe
Fat, unattractive, and untalented all these things I’ve thought of myself . There is Gratitude in feeling that the Universe has never let me get to the point of the great escape. This journey ain’t easy but I’m here.
And so I take a deep breath, soak it in.
©MarcusCaesar
P.S the video that inspired this post is from @thechristishow, someone who is very talented and hilarious. Follow her on all social media platforms, you won’t be disappointed.
You want the best for everyone
Including yourself
I need a miracle
I want to move to another place to
Practice my art, fulfill my hearts desire
Fear, finances, hold me back
I send light to receive light
This is my call to the universe
Help me in anyway you can
Guide me
To the situations, people, places
My heart is full of gratitude for
What’s to come
I work hard, now I have to work smart
By the end of 2017 I plan to be settled in
Send me your positivity
Send me your magic
Help make my dreams come true 🙏🏽
©MarcusCaesar
Dreams are real, vivid productions, high quality writing. Making them come true could be the hard part, afraid to share your art never knowing if you could brighten someone’s day or save a life.
Stuck in the same place , to everything and everyone you know. The encouragement is there from your peers and everywhere but you can’t find it inside yourself, it’s like your deaf to your own praise.
Prayers and meditation that’s what they say, invest in your life, things work out great that way. I’ve been diligent in this practice all along but it’s not enough to make me strong. Strong enough to make that move, Pursue my dreams.
Life is always changing, I’m still holding on. I’ll have to do it and adjust later. I may fail which makes me shudder with fear, but what else do I do dear? Cry about it, sulk about it, whine about it. Will that make things better? I doubt it.
It’s tiring.
©MarcusCaesar
First time ocean visit
Loudness , waves crashing
Water sign, deep connection
I could stay all day, time permitting
Blessings abound, gratitude sets in
Not everyone has these blessings
They may take it for granted
I don’t. I won’t
Heaven I hear you
Heard
©Marcus Caesar
{Including Me}
Told by a co-worker you should have more confidence in yourself
Confidence doesn’t come easy, based on the belief that if I think too highly people will make it there mission to take me down
Which brings the point that people are not thinking of me as much as I think of me
People have said “you’re handsome”, but would people actually say “you ugly”?
I overthink, I criticize, I realize thats who I am
If I’m gifted at making acquaintances , own it
If people want to see me smile, do it
If the leadership at my job wants me to lead and that’s the end goal anyway, don’t shrink and automatically recommend someone else
If you fail, that means you tried right?
In 2017, I’ve gotta step into my greatness and claim my place in this world no backing down
Most people want me to thrive and I should want that for myself
And I can’t do that wishing to be someone else
I step into this place, the table has been set
Now muthafucka you better eat…..
© Marcus Caesar
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