not my ally

poetry

my stories I pass

built to last

on to the new

tried and true

trying to move forward

my expectations are lowered

messing with some

keep my cards close

don’t want to ghost

but what else can I do

if you take my humanity

use it against me

and expect me to say nothing

not on my watch

clock keeps ticking

world keeps turning

who are you again?

©️MarcusCaesar

blooming onion

poetry

I’m over 40

don’t know where I’m going

don’t know when it will last

the agony of regrets in my past

each day I’m given

should be worth celebrating right?

adventure about to take flight

any day now

life is mine for the taking

I’m just making

excuses.

am i lazy or unmotivated

or both

gotta shake it off

more Mariah than Taylor

made for me

life, easy, breezy

by the horns

gonna make it

so it is and it is so.

here’s the show!

©️MarcusCaesar

luv 2 see it

poetry

growing up queer

didn’t see many like me around

is that why pictures from the past were of a frown?

the times have changed, thank god for that.

love to see it, the new generation

living and loving.

©️MarcusCaesar

freedom needed

poetry

you can put make-up on it

you can drink it away

you can be bi, straight or gay

the vessel is the same

learning to live in the now

not circle the drain

i want to forget my pain

©️MarcusCaesar

drained

poetry

so close to my dreams

can’t get close enough it seems

circling the pipes

nights I stay up

lonely, but don’t give a fuck

please inspire me

don’t know who I’m talking to

just hoped the message come through

I’m drained

need some relief.

©️MarcusCaesar

some holy night

poetry

this was the day

plans were made

you betrayed my heart

not okay

this was the day

we are to say our vows

how did I not see this before?

My life isn’t over

I wont shoulder this disaster

on my own

What does this mean?

I’m keen on letting you figure it out

©️MarcusCaesar

meet the strong

poetry

everyday we get up

rise to the occasion

sometimes it’s amazing

until it’s not.

we try our best

put on our super-hero chest

fake it till you make it

the chain is stronger than you think

i realize everyday it’s how you think

thoughts become things

it’s time to think great thoughts

try it, it’s you.

©️MarcusCaesar

take as you need pt 4

quotes

Sometimes I sit and wish I could freeze time right where I am. That way I’ll never lose all of the lovely things that are around me. But time keeps going and things keep getting lost. But I’m still living because something new and beautiful is going to come around eventually and that right there is something to stick around for.

-Unknown

take as you need pt 3

quotes

Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.

-Ernest Hemingway