I felt the feelings
smiled from ear to ear
blissful music, live in person
what a joy to behold.
©️MarcusCaesar
music
Musicology
poetry
i turn it up loud
my head in the clouds
it gets me through
music I need you
i cherish hearing
too.
©️MarcusCaesar
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In 💔 with your fav rapper
poetry
I had to getaway
the road was my muse
I refused to settle
i then met him
he paid my bills for a year
said anything you want my dear
don’t tell
it never fails
to go this route…
No feelings involved
he was my ticket here
he told me don’t worry
nothing to fear
against my better judgment
thought of him as my husband
and then everything went to hell
it started with needing bail
for what you say
I was dumb okay…
I should’ve never went announced
to be unexpected and he was undetected
was a problem for him
There was a fight
I tried with all my might
to leave him/it alone but
I felt beholden to him
saving my life in so many ways
but life needs to be golden for me
without him.
Lesson Learned
©️MarcusCaesar
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Hold Up The Light
family, life, memoir
Photo Courtesy of Pinterest
I’m still here, but I’ve thought about it
Not being here.
Driving on an overpass, how quick to jump
This too shall pass.
Looking at the bottle of pain pills, easy
Takes the pain away.
Looking into the future, it’s not clear
Sadly it’s filled with fear.
Injured from years Dr’s say neglect
And yet
I’m writing this. Am I the strong friend
The one no one checks on. Sometimes
take it day by day, telling the enemy go
away . I don’t want none of your time,
I got mine and I’m gonna be fine.
I learned of a local news reporter today
Who took her life, didn’t know her but
Tears automatically.
On a random night in ICU , i was there
Asking God to take me away
The toughest headache, the sharpest nerve
Pain, more drugs came, the feeling left
For a second.
The point is I’ve been there no judgement
What gets me through?
I’ve asked forgiveness for the wretched
Person i was to merge with the grown up
Man i am today.
Music also has been a great relief, songs
That have preached to me, spoken to me
One such song is the title to this freewrite
“Hold up the light” 3 amazing voices I
Heard talking to me and i thought
Maybe I’m the light? Is this what I’m here
For? Love, Light ,Fight for what’s right?
IDK life is crazy man. You still got me.
I ask for guidance Universe. let me be your
Vessel. I ask humbly to be a light in this
World of darkness…..
©️MarcusCaesar
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When you know you know 🤷🏽♂️
life, poetry, poetry creative writing
so bright
wanna shine
i step back
because of “what they think”
creative life
my own limitations
are blinding me
can’t won’t see
compliments from peeps
watching stars Glaring
trying to be free
of the old me
wipe the mirror dude
see yourself
be yourself
walk into the light
u have the fight
gonna get it right
someday is tonight
while sounds of blackness
optimistic plays in the background
©MarcusCaesar
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Now is here at this moment…
life, Lists
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I haven’t been happy for a while, there I said it. It’s nobody’s fault but my own. I put so much on material things and the need to feel like I’m somebody and have it be acknowledged in the world that I lost sight of joy. I see it in others but have yet to acknowledge it in my own existence. Will I find it? It’s a daily challenge. Its hard work trying to give smiles when you feel sad. I’ve neglected this blog because I’ve felt dry creatively. I’m sure that most writers have felt this way at some point in their journey. Today I’m gonna take a step in another direction and post 15 things I’m in love with and grateful for right now, because today is the 15th. 😉
1) Emeli Sande’ s “Don’t Fight The Bullet”, “Colorblind” and “Hurts”
2) Adidas Slides
3) Norah Jones’s “Change is Gonna Come”
4) Twitter for endless commentary that’s funny, inspiring and outrageous
5) The means to pay bills
6) A man with nice feet
7) Marvel Comic illustration covers based on Hip-Hop Album covers
8) Garlicky shrimp pasta alfredo
9) Barbers who adjust to your schedule
10) The whole movie theatre experience (seats, big screen, surround sound, snacks)
11) Mudslides
12) Christina Aguilera’s “I Will Be”
13) Toronto, Canada
14) British Pop Music
15) People who accept me as I am.
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Vocal Warmup
life, poetry, Uncategorized
Find your natural voice the teacher says
Never knowing the price the past paid
In losing such a valuable instrument.
Sounding like a girl when you’re supposed
To be a man can let down your spirits
Up your guard and unknowingly make your life hard
Find your natural voice the teacher says
No falsetto, strong and proud
I wanna hear your voice so sing it loud
Pick a song any song share your gift with the world
I’m here for a reason to help you understand
Voices come in all shapes and sizes
Its time you realizes that we won’t all
Sound the same, look the same
I can’t pretend to understand your pain
But I can help you become aware
Gifts so rare that not everyone gets it
It’s for the tried and true alone
Give it some time your flower will be full blown
Luther, Freddie, Donny, Sam, Michael and Prince
Shared, cared and paved the way with musical talent
Beyond compare, so how dare you
Not treat this gift with the utmost care
Nurture it, teach it, stretch it
Find your natural voice the teacher says
I will I reply give me some time
Learn for this gift, use this gift
Share this gift because God gave me this gift.
©MarcusCaesar
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Lightskinned GodFather
creative non-fiction, essay, life, Uncategorized
Ipod turned up loud passing on seems to do that to an artist you’ve admired for so long
the music loud and fierce never saw you live but from what ive heard that concert was one
not to miss the TV performances are what I gauge my fascination on that’s right he’s gone.
The Beautiful Ones-Brilliant
Kiss- Sexy
I wanna be your Lover -Magnificent
Diamonds and Pearls- Ultimate Love Song
Sexy MF -Manifesto
Growing up lighter skinned black it felt like you were our compass on how we shouldn’t
act. You were deemed soft so we all were soft, you dressed in a way that was all your own
There you were unapologetically light, permed, sometimes made up one time ass all out
I was young I didn’t know or care what that was all about. In the later years your artistry
never waned you taught us light-skinned men that we can be beautiful, hair layed,
eyebrows done and still have a shit ton of fun. It wasn’t about sexuality so much it was
freedom of expression. Fuck the box. Create your own lane. There will never be another.
I believe in my heart of hearts this is what you’d want. No facsimiles.
Create our own space. Be your own individual. Shock the world. Live on your own terms.
You will never leave because music never dies. R.I.P
©2016 CaesarMarques
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Music That Uplifts…Part 3
essay, life, memoir, Uncategorized
You are not being punished; you are being prepared.
Prepared for more love. Prepared for more impact. Prepared to inspire change in others. Prepared for more awareness. Prepared for your dreams.
– Mastin Kipp
Hitting rough patches has been one of the defining moments in my life, something I remember more than the good stuff. Not good. I want balance, to appreciate the dark and use it to enjoy the light. It’s hard to admit the victim mentality has an allure that I’ve been used to for far too long. I’m learning that. I made a recent post on Facebook about getting kicked down and a friend suggested a song to listen to keep my spirits up, it was one that I hadn’t considered but the idea was one I always relied on. Music as a therapy placeholder keeping your spirit intact and sometimes making you look a million different ways at things through lyrics. Here are some lyrics that have resonated with me recently…….
So come back when I’m good to go. I got drinks to drink, and men to hold. I got good things to do with my life, yeah. Oh, I wanna dance in the open breeze. Feel the wind in my hair, hear the ocean sing. I got good things to feel in my life, yeah
-Sia “Reaper”
I just wanna be happy. But if I keep on doing the things That keep on bringing me pain. There’s no one else I can blame. If I’m not happy. Wasted time but now I can see. The biggest enemy it was me. So I’m not happy
-Kirk Franklin “Wanna Be Happy”
Your Grace makes ALL Saints out of Sinners! Now I’ve tried my ways but the way that I need is yours. I look to you when it’s all right. I’ll look to you when it’s all wrong. Please, remind me, when I get low. What you see when you look at me. What I know I can be
-Monica “Saints and Sinners”
I hope this post finds you in good spirits and great health. I enjoy sharing and I hope to do more in 2016. Peace and love…..
©CaesarMarques2016
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Music that uplifts….Part 2 #poetry
poetry, poetry creative writing
Photo Courtesy of Bing Images
All day noise, people talking to me, O please just leave me be
headphones where are you i feel you calling my name, put you in
this is where my smile begins. Put on that new Janet or Jessie J
I'm confident these ladies and their grooves have something to say
if i wanna feel on top of the world, maybe Brandy can help
or a dose of Jay Z let his cool rhymes and intricate wordplay work on me.
Whatever the mood music can help, hey put on Missy and Tim they got beats
just enjoy yourself. When you wanna hear vocals for days, I put on Pink
Whitney, Luther or Mariah music so good goes down like babies and pacifiers
love music nothing can compare, I may even listen to Bach well maybe on a dare
Headphones won't let me go, I'm in another world. Lyrics speak my heart
Melodies speak my soul, Music is a gift, a gun to my head lock and load
music never gets old and it never will.
© 2015 CaesarMarques
