“ALL PRAISE BE TO GOD TO WHOM ALL PRAISE IS DUE. Let us pursue Him in the righteous path. Yes it is true; ‘seek and ye shall find.’ Only through Him can we know the most wondrous bequeathal […] May we never forget that in the sunshine of our lives, through the storm and after the rain – it is all with God – in all ways and forever. ALL PRAISE TO GOD.”
-John Coltrane, original liner notes to A Love Supreme, 1964
boy, you betta sing loud
proud
make’em feel it, let your voice be heard.
©️MarcusCaesar
I felt the feelings
smiled from ear to ear
blissful music, live in person
what a joy to behold.
©️MarcusCaesar
i turn it up loud
my head in the clouds
it gets me through
music I need you
i cherish hearing
too.
©️MarcusCaesar
I had to getaway
the road was my muse
I refused to settle
i then met him
he paid my bills for a year
said anything you want my dear
don’t tell
it never fails
to go this route…
No feelings involved
he was my ticket here
he told me don’t worry
nothing to fear
against my better judgment
thought of him as my husband
and then everything went to hell
it started with needing bail
for what you say
I was dumb okay…
I should’ve never went announced
to be unexpected and he was undetected
was a problem for him
There was a fight
I tried with all my might
to leave him/it alone but
I felt beholden to him
saving my life in so many ways
but life needs to be golden for me
without him.
Lesson Learned
©️MarcusCaesar
Photo Courtesy of Pinterest
I’m still here, but I’ve thought about it
Not being here.
Driving on an overpass, how quick to jump
This too shall pass.
Looking at the bottle of pain pills, easy
Takes the pain away.
Looking into the future, it’s not clear
Sadly it’s filled with fear.
Injured from years Dr’s say neglect
And yet
I’m writing this. Am I the strong friend
The one no one checks on. Sometimes
take it day by day, telling the enemy go
away . I don’t want none of your time,
I got mine and I’m gonna be fine.
I learned of a local news reporter today
Who took her life, didn’t know her but
Tears automatically.
On a random night in ICU , i was there
Asking God to take me away
The toughest headache, the sharpest nerve
Pain, more drugs came, the feeling left
For a second.
The point is I’ve been there no judgement
What gets me through?
I’ve asked forgiveness for the wretched
Person i was to merge with the grown up
Man i am today.
Music also has been a great relief, songs
That have preached to me, spoken to me
One such song is the title to this freewrite
“Hold up the light” 3 amazing voices I
Heard talking to me and i thought
Maybe I’m the light? Is this what I’m here
For? Love, Light ,Fight for what’s right?
IDK life is crazy man. You still got me.
I ask for guidance Universe. let me be your
Vessel. I ask humbly to be a light in this
World of darkness…..
©️MarcusCaesar
so bright
wanna shine
i step back
because of “what they think”
creative life
my own limitations
are blinding me
can’t won’t see
compliments from peeps
watching stars Glaring
trying to be free
of the old me
wipe the mirror dude
see yourself
be yourself
walk into the light
u have the fight
gonna get it right
someday is tonight
while sounds of blackness
optimistic plays in the background
©MarcusCaesar
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I haven’t been happy for a while, there I said it. It’s nobody’s fault but my own. I put so much on material things and the need to feel like I’m somebody and have it be acknowledged in the world that I lost sight of joy. I see it in others but have yet to acknowledge it in my own existence. Will I find it? It’s a daily challenge. Its hard work trying to give smiles when you feel sad. I’ve neglected this blog because I’ve felt dry creatively. I’m sure that most writers have felt this way at some point in their journey. Today I’m gonna take a step in another direction and post 15 things I’m in love with and grateful for right now, because today is the 15th. 😉
1) Emeli Sande’ s “Don’t Fight The Bullet”, “Colorblind” and “Hurts”
2) Adidas Slides
3) Norah Jones’s “Change is Gonna Come”
4) Twitter for endless commentary that’s funny, inspiring and outrageous
5) The means to pay bills
6) A man with nice feet
7) Marvel Comic illustration covers based on Hip-Hop Album covers
8) Garlicky shrimp pasta alfredo
9) Barbers who adjust to your schedule
10) The whole movie theatre experience (seats, big screen, surround sound, snacks)
11) Mudslides
12) Christina Aguilera’s “I Will Be”
13) Toronto, Canada
14) British Pop Music
15) People who accept me as I am.
Find your natural voice the teacher says
Never knowing the price the past paid
In losing such a valuable instrument.
Sounding like a girl when you’re supposed
To be a man can let down your spirits
Up your guard and unknowingly make your life hard
Find your natural voice the teacher says
No falsetto, strong and proud
I wanna hear your voice so sing it loud
Pick a song any song share your gift with the world
I’m here for a reason to help you understand
Voices come in all shapes and sizes
Its time you realizes that we won’t all
Sound the same, look the same
I can’t pretend to understand your pain
But I can help you become aware
Gifts so rare that not everyone gets it
It’s for the tried and true alone
Give it some time your flower will be full blown
Luther, Freddie, Donny, Sam, Michael and Prince
Shared, cared and paved the way with musical talent
Beyond compare, so how dare you
Not treat this gift with the utmost care
Nurture it, teach it, stretch it
Find your natural voice the teacher says
I will I reply give me some time
Learn for this gift, use this gift
Share this gift because God gave me this gift.
©MarcusCaesar
