I’m gonna chase waterfalls; An Ode….#poetry

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Tank full of gas, as the pedal hits the metal I ask  are you happy today, the smile on my face

lets me know I’m near the place that brings me joy in that brief second I see wet. Park the car

now sand through my toes, I don’t care where the time goes. Happy faces around, I even see a clown

enjoying all that this place is. Waves crash against the tide I only hope that the divine blesses me

with a home near this fantastic space only grace could shape something so rich, powerful, beautiful and

nourishing. I’m in awe. Mother Nature. Water. Raw.

© 2015 CaesarMarques

Love life. Imperfections…#poetry

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A Limerick

I ‘m at a lost because I don’t have much time

to find a true love that’s mine

All the dudes are straight, that I wanna

date, clearly fate is taking its time. Wait

I’m not drunk enough could you please pass the red wine?

©2015 CaesarMarques

The skin hides what everyone can see…..#Poetry

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My skin is big you see, enough room for maybe you and two to three skinny folk. It bleeds like any other surface with blood going through its veins sometimes its easy not to feel the pain. Its my protection of sorts, kinda like when we were kids and built pillow forts. As a child we used to jump on, hide under and disappear into that fluffy void. All that time wanting just to be heard without making noise. Playing tag feeling special because you couldn’t find me all this skin wrapped around all that’s meant to guide me. Into your heart, into your soul into telling stories that should and need to be told. All said and done I’m glad the skin is here because most strangers cant sense the fear.

©2015 CaesarMarques

The gift that keeps on giving….#poetry

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For when the going gets rough

And the struggle seems never-ending

In this universe, there’s unforseen forces at work

That have your back and your front

Have no fear you’re gonna be alright or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

©2015 CaesarMarques

Person To Person

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Best Things In Life Are Free

I’ve had associates, had some friends but what did that get me in the end? Judgements all around about how I get down. Found out it didn’t matter, all that was chit chatter. Whats going on inside I had to find out to make sure my mind was right and to eliminate all doubt.

Because Of You

The world doesn’t seem so cold. The fucks I gave went away. Freedom was living how I wanna live, giving my authentic self out to the world. Take it or leave it was the theme song, I’m kinda glad I lasted this long. Tests all around, snakes in the grass but I had angels on my shoulders making sure I passed.

Superpower

Is the way you dress, to the way you wear your hair. It’s the bass in your voice to the confidence in your walk. It’s in the words you say, the way you kiss. It’s in the causes you believe in, to the places you spend your money. We carry it in our eyes, the fibers of our mind. A damn shame some use it to be unkind.

Rise Up

To the wonders of the world. The different colors of the people. The spectrum of sexuality that makes us all more alike than different. Let the big book pull us together and not tear us apart. let your smile lead to my smile and soon the whole world will smile. Bond in the fight to celebrate our humanness, because lets face it its the one thing we all possess.

Thank you for helping me through, you know who you are.

© 2015 CaesarMarques

When you feel some kinda way…

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Saw myself on-screen horrified at the sight

When will this darkness that overtakes me come into the light.

Theres a lot of well wishes but what will that get me.

Drink You Away

I can’t, one addiction I’ve never succumbed to

How easy that alcohol would be the place I would run to

My taste buds don’t favor.

Therapy

Did wonders but ended years later, the talking helped

getting the grit and grime off my mind. I walked away free

or so I thought.

Heart to Yours

Wearing my heart on my sleeve takes a toll especially when I here

other sad stories unfold. I don’t want to be a burden so I prefer a journal

where I can pour my heart out without judgement.

Beautiful

Linda Perry wrote a song, words can’t bring me down but what if they’re

your own? You try to rise above stay on higher ground and look for love of yourself

which is somewhere underground.

That’s What Friends Are For

Wonderful, talented, encouraging but are they telling me the truth or telling me what

they think I wanna hear? Words can become flowers or weapons but only you decide

which, another thing to consider on this journey.

In My Feelings

It happens sometimes, I know guys aren’t supposed to show feeling and emotion but I’m not that dude. Giving a fuck is becoming a thing of the past oh how can I get that feeling to last. Doing me best the way I know how and trying to make it work.

CaesarMarques

I Miss Him…. A Poem

No, this isn't me as a youngster..lol No, this isn’t me as a youngster..lol

There were times when the world seemed so open, problems didn’t hit me as hard

When coloring was the shit and getting a 64 count crayon box meant you were blessed

From deciding what Matchbox cars to play with, what Lego fixtures I could build

I Miss Him

The couple of dollars I could make from raking the grass, the jumping on any couch or bed

to almost breaking down when I didn’t get what I want. My oh my time goes by fast

When hearing the Ice Cream truck brought so much joy and a sweet tooth to match

I Miss Him

Growing older, I really understood what the world thought of me and  not having the tools

to not give a damn, I gave in. Walls went up, heart in a lockbox gasping for air

Thinking if I was “normal” things would be ok

I Wanna Hug Him

Knowing that what I believe matters above all else, tides have changed the water is less choppy

the greatest love of all was so easy to achieve, right under my nose, the smell of freedom

the clouds are blue again.

I Am Him

CaesarMarques

Me #POETRY

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I knew he existed just had to find him somewhere

all the times that life kept him under wraps

It was a pleasure to know he had my back

Confident, Courageous, Cocky he can appear to be

as I dug deep in the spirit of all that is me.

He comes to play at different times, he’s picky about

the energy he shares, at some points you can look at him

and it may seem that there are no cares. Hiding is crucial

because of what society deems the right thing to be, say or act

As a matter of fact the light that shines so bright can be dimmed by certain

words of no fault of his own just a insecurity overgrown

Its getting easier as the years go by, love of self is a virtue that comes to

play almost every day. Watching, waiting, hoping, praying that it never goes away

the intense desire to be, feel and radiate true unconditional love. When it goes to the universe

and boomerangs back you never think of the lack

lack of money, lack of significant other, lack of friendships, lack of honesty

With yourself and others because of the fear that comes with it. It’s never enough

It will never be enough but you are enough some people look at you and see

all that you don’t the goodness, the funny, the sexy, the all around mushy gorgeous

Something will catch you and point it all out and you will not be able to deny it

and why should you?

CaesarMarques

Just Can’t Give Up Now

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Start anew, break free from the chains that bind me

Where did the chains come from you ask

I may have had something to do with it, you see

Being a prisoner is tough, in your mind you believe the lies that

only you can see ,only you can tell yourself of why you can’t attract

the things you want, need, desire but I believe I wasnt brought this far

to be left behind.

Get rid of past transgressions, let go of past hurts

The road would be clearer that way, on your way to the blessings that you have in store

that have piled up because you’ve never took the time to notice. Worry has

clouded your brain for too long and now its time to stay strong

Your season is now, hard work will do its part for you were meant to live

abundantly from the start. I just have to believe and know

that I just can’t give up now…

CaesarMarques

My Shield…..#poetry

Photo Courtesy of Austin Powers
Photo Courtesy of Austin Powers

I had to draw you in with a story to tell

about a man some people pretend to know so well.

I’ve struggled with weight for a bulk of my life eating burgers and shakes

I never thought twice. Entering my mid 30’s this year shined a light

so bright that I had to face my truth. It can construed as a guard between me and the

world, a buffer to keep people away because society says big is bad

Thinking like that can keep you from the life you were meant to have

In my life it has kept me out of fights, out of love, out of physical entrapments

that could open my eyes to what the world really is and could be. Its sad I know

you don’t realize how much you can grow from learning that there’s a place for everyone

and feeling sorry for yourself can be a turn off. Burn off the stinky recesses of the past

so that your future can be a blast. newfound appreciation was found when I looked in the mirror

and saw my invisible crown, sword ,scepter and shield took it off and what was revealed?

Me in my glory only as happy as I chose to be its only up to me to have the life that’s meant to be

Opening my heart will be one of the greatest battles of my life I’m gonna need all the support that

the universe will give. In the end it’s gonna be all good no pressure no cooker all love.

The shield comes off, is this when truly enjoying your life begins?

CaesarMarques