comfortable shoes or none at all
new attitude
noise canceling headphones
great big cojones
salt-n-pepa, robin s, cece peniston,
black box, to name a few….
start with the groove
drop down into the pocket
feel it in your veins
ignore everyone around
bend your legs, arch your back
don’t turn around, the past is wack…
rhythm is going to get you
catch you and never release you
if the rhythm feels good to you baby let me
hear you say uh uh baby
your inner child thanks you
©️MarcusCaesar
i get high
to forget
i get high
to remember
i get high
to not feel
everything.
©️MarcusCaesar
be never ashamed of your color
inside you look like no other
we all have a place here on this earth.
©️MarcusCaesar
It’s hard
coming, going, never knowing
romantic love
sure there’s lust
but you can’t trust
everyone.
I open my mind and heart
that’s where I’ll start
maybe one day?
©️MarcusCaesar
I’m still here, but I’ve thought about it
Not being here.
Driving on an overpass, how quick to jump
This too shall pass.
Looking at the bottle of pain pills, easy
Takes the pain away.
Looking into the future, it’s not clear
Sadly it’s filled with fear.
Injured from years Dr’s say neglect
And yet
I’m writing this. Am I the strong friend
The one no one checks on. Sometimes
take it day by day, telling the enemy go
away . I don’t want none of your time,
I got mine and I’m gonna be fine.
I learned of a local news reporter today
Who took her life, didn’t know her but
Tears automatically.
On a random night in ICU , i was there
Asking God to take me away
The toughest headache, the sharpest nerve
Pain, more drugs came, the feeling left
For a second.
The point is I’ve been there no judgement
What gets me through?
I’ve asked forgiveness for the wretched
Person i was to merge with the grown up
Man i am today.
Music also has been a great relief, songs
That have preached to me, spoken to me
One such song is the title to this freewrite
“Hold up the light” 3 amazing voices I
Heard talking to me and i thought
Maybe I’m the light? Is this what I’m here
For? Love, Light ,Fight for what’s right?
IDK life is crazy man. You still got me.
I ask for guidance Universe. let me be your
Vessel. I ask humbly to be a light in this
World of darkness…..
©️MarcusCaesar
faces graze
intoxicating haze
don’t want it to stop
talk dirty
whisper in my ear
head goes down
your lips form a smile
the best is yet to come
you can’t control it
body shakes, breathing changes
I’m grinning, told ya so
Climax
©️MarcusCaesar
I thank you Universe for instilling in me a resilience that can only be supernatural. I think long and hard too much honestly about what the world would be without me in it. Breathe
I’ve been inside literally and figuratively because I didn’t think I had much to offer, this person was more talented or this dude’s body looked better. It’s not a “girly” thing. It’s a human thing. Breathe
As I near 40 years on this earth and I am now putting myself out there showing that I’m a presence that won’t be denied, I’m figuring out that THIS is what the universe has wanted from and for me all along. I just had to get outta my own way. Breathe
Fat, unattractive, and untalented all these things I’ve thought of myself . There is Gratitude in feeling that the Universe has never let me get to the point of the great escape. This journey ain’t easy but I’m here.
And so I take a deep breath, soak it in.
©MarcusCaesar
P.S the video that inspired this post is from @thechristishow, someone who is very talented and hilarious. Follow her on all social media platforms, you won’t be disappointed.
The clearing
Space
Wants
Thoughts of negativity
The awakening mind
Mind
Needs
Positive reinforcement
The universe
Sees
Me
As I am
The force
Awakens
Creativity
Moving forward
My eyes
Look
To Believe
That everything and
Anything is
Possible
I choose this life
I choose this hope
Can’t settle for less
Nope
©MarcusCaesar
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