Author: mjay310
Creative Robot
Retired Superhero
Lifelong Learner
Wanna Be Billionaire
Homie/ Lover/Friend
On Creativity….
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It’s always on my mind.
Hi. I’m a mess.
I came back from a road trip recently and some things popped in my head when my best friend said to me on the way home “I thought you were going to get loose, everyone seemed open except you.” Well thanks best friend, if I didn’t like you so much I would’ve pushed you out at the rest area. (I kid) I hate to replay the same narrative over and over so I’ll just say this what people has said about me in the past, I tend to think in the present.
People were not nice in the past, let me tell ya. I believed and believe you have to look a certain way, act a certain way to get what you want. In my choosing not to, I’m being a rebel, original and also single, not wealthy and so on and so forth. It’s all in my thoughts right? I’ve read somewhere that thoughts become things, what you think will ultimately be what manifests in real life.
In short, I’m doing horrible at this.
I want to change. I really do.
It’s been a rough 2016 so far. Want to find my light and keep it.
CaesarMarques
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Finding Out… Part 1
All over the place these
Thoughts of mines trying to
Get it together
I wanted to do everything
Creativity formed at birth
So what has stopped me?
A fear, opinions, lies
Of someone else’s experiences
Branded on me since birth
Took time to form my own
I’m on my path
Stars have aligned
Watch out here I come
©2016 CaesarMarques
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Some Puzzle Pieces Wont Fit…
I bought some new shoes
Now it takes away the blues
Walking strong alone
I bought a new car
Moonroof and leather seats
Am I ever gonna get to share these treats
I bought some jewelry
Gold shining in the light
Whose hand am I holding tonight?
I bought a new home
Marble counters and jetted tub
Life is great dinner’s ready at 8
I bought a new body
6 pack abs and ego to match
Attitude strong no problems here
I bought a new life
Found out it didn’t fulfill what was inside
All the insecurities I tried to hide.
©2016 CaesarMarques
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When unavailable feels so good…
When the sun sets our tongues collide
I’ve been waiting for you strong
The pressure mounts the thoughts seep
Through sweat through our pores why
Didn’t I ever ignore the signs you showed
My feelings were bold truth be told I didn’t
Wouldn’t care these sweet nothings were ours
To share between us too but deep down I knew
You didn’t have to tell me I saw in your gifts
The weekend visits the out of town trips
My heart can’t take much more of this ache
My feelings I forsake for the sanctity of your hands
In mines. It’s not meant to be I don’t want to be on
The side watching family pics on IG wishing that was me
That’s not the life I see for myself
It won’t feel the same without you but
It’s a price I have to pay there can be no other way
I’ll miss your lip quiver when my tongue touched that space
And I’ll also miss that smile on your face
My life will go on this I know to be true
I’m making this the ending for me and you.
©2016 Caesar Marques
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Artistic Prerogative?
Separating the artist from the art. Its kind of hard to take them apart.
He hates the LGBT community and so does she but I love the art they put
into the world. Question comes up should I support or should I abort
all media from these people who don’t agree with my life
and no it’s not a lifestyle, I could go for miles running my mouth
about how hypocritical these artists are, problem is my arguments
wont go very far. Many people talk but not a lot of people listen would
they really stop and pay attention? what I feel is valid and what you feel
is valid too lets both live our lives making it do what it do. I listen to some
music because its inspirational, the universe helped you sing that song to
help everyone including me, member of the LGBT. When you pass I will mourn
you and the art you shared for you were an inspiration, one of those who dared
be unapologetically who you were. A lesson for us all
©2016 CaesarMarques
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Lightskinned GodFather
Ipod turned up loud passing on seems to do that to an artist you’ve admired for so long
the music loud and fierce never saw you live but from what ive heard that concert was one
not to miss the TV performances are what I gauge my fascination on that’s right he’s gone.
The Beautiful Ones-Brilliant
Kiss- Sexy
I wanna be your Lover -Magnificent
Diamonds and Pearls- Ultimate Love Song
Sexy MF -Manifesto
Growing up lighter skinned black it felt like you were our compass on how we shouldn’t
act. You were deemed soft so we all were soft, you dressed in a way that was all your own
There you were unapologetically light, permed, sometimes made up one time ass all out
I was young I didn’t know or care what that was all about. In the later years your artistry
never waned you taught us light-skinned men that we can be beautiful, hair layed,
eyebrows done and still have a shit ton of fun. It wasn’t about sexuality so much it was
freedom of expression. Fuck the box. Create your own lane. There will never be another.
I believe in my heart of hearts this is what you’d want. No facsimiles.
Create our own space. Be your own individual. Shock the world. Live on your own terms.
You will never leave because music never dies. R.I.P
©2016 CaesarMarques
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We R Who We R
In 1980, the foundation was solid, hearts were filled, joy was released
peace had been found a new entity was in town.
Growing up not knowing how he felt was considered wrong he clawed
and he clawed but ultimately felt all alone.
Then it came, teenage years hit like a brick, hygiene less than perfect
fitting in was the goal, slowly selling his soul.
The property fell in decay, all that promise slowly started going away
he had much to say but didn’t feel safe enough to say it.
Oh, many people tried to get behind the wall others just teased
family plus friends et all.
Shut down, anti social, a brick home no foundation just a lot of furniture
send people away it’s for the best don’t you see the S on this chest?
Late 20’s a merger was announced, spirit and joy came to rescue your boy
and things started turning around.
It shows what happens when investing in yourself because let’s face it, it could be no one else
that will take care of things like you can.
Are things perfect not at all he’s still scared to fall but knows there’s a net
and a light that never fails and likea great angelic spirit this dude will prevail.
©CaesarMarques 2016
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Is it still a block if…
I’ve complained of writers block in my head for a while now. It was getting better when I came across a book of story prompts that got my imagination going and doing them each day was exciting. I lost that fire, in the midst of it all my temporary position ended and the search for a new position started and I had to prioritize my time and the writing got left on the back burner. It’s not that I’m void of ideas, I keep my iPhone notes app plenty busy with nuggets of inspiration from reading posts on Facebook to some lyrics in a song that spark my fancy.
Its more an attention span thing for me when I get so inspired about an idea and then completely leave it be, go back to it and then blank. Does anybody else have that issue? It’s not that I’m blocked or suffering from the dreaded writers block or am I?, it’s that not one idea holds my attention long enough. I’m right in the middle of reading the second book of the “Miss Peregrine’s Peculiar Children” book series, (which is great btw) and I get flashes of inspiration so that helps. I’m guessing my issue lies in keeping with an idea long enough to get a short story, screenplay or novel started.
What are some tips from some of my fellow bloggers? writers? authors? poets? screenwriters?
Any tips would be greatly appreciated!
CaesarMarques
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