I enjoy eating
Fast foods, Snackfoods, good foods, bad foods
It’s my armor
Invisible, seen, antisocial, mean
I choose this
Hard to quit, Easy to get, goes down smooth
It’s how I cope
Sexuality, obesity, debt, stuck
I pray about it
Love, money, purpose, relationships
It gets better, doesn’t it? Hope.
©MarcusCaesar
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Guardian Angel hear my plea
Come rescue me
Depression has come calling
Loud, strong, impressionable
Feeling stuck, caged in you could say
Tell me something, make my day
Brighter, sunnier
Love letters to my heart
An elixir for my woes
Deep thinking, contemplating
Just letting go, leaving it all behind
Comparison is death at my age, any age
Oh sage, walk with me, talk with me
Give me the magic to mix this life
Into something I’d love, even like
Grant me the greatest gift
Of being able to see the world in all
its glory, is it by telling stories?
One year older, hair a bit grayer
I would like a sign for the piece of mind
To move forward knowing that life can be a
Challenge and the storm I’m in won’t always
Be this way, oh heavens I pray 🙏🏽
Your Elixir would be most helpful whatever
It may be, I kneel and bow to thee.
Be the guide.
©Marcus Caesar
Faith is something i’ve grown to have because it gets me through my life. I believe the Universe has something out there for me that is better than what i’m dealing with now.
I come back from taking some vacation days to my place of employment and basically there’s a mess. My response is 
You were so busy that you couldn’t do the right thing and clean up after yourself? I’m at my breaking point and I don’t know how much longer I can take working at this place. This is where my faith has strongly played a part in my life.
I’ve only had 2 full-time jobs in my life and one ended because the company went out of business. My faith allowed me to pursue this opportunity knowing I’d get it so I can make the transition from job to job without being unemployed. The problem is that I got complacent and stayed at this job I don’t like for way too long and now it and most people who work there are getting under my skin. Dude, why are you still there you ask? The money is decent and my passion is in the creative arts which in my midwestern town,finding jobs that pay can be iffy.
I started about a year ago applying heavily to jobs in my actual degree and the response that was most popular was not enough experience. How can I get experience if no one will hire me?! Faith at this point is on the downward slide, I’ve asked the universe why am I not finding work that can pay my bills while pursuing my real passion and vocation. Quit my job and hope another comes along seems so foreign to me and to be honest stupid. I don’t want to go back after quitting because I know I could.
Prayer has helped me in some dicey situations and I try to pray at least once a day. All the solutions I’ve come up with seems so far-fetched that it seems improbable. Is that what faith is? Knowing that the solutions I am praying for, are for my own good even though they seem so out of what I would do on my own. I’ve gotten back up after setbacks because I had to. uncertainty in my future is crazy when my way of living is jeopardized but maybe that’s when Faith needs to be strongest.
Is the Universe saying have a little faith in me? Is the Universe saying believe I can and will provide for you!
Its hard work but seems like the best option.
Caesar Marques
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