news so much a drainage

sometimes you worry

turn off the news

spirits lifted.



…loading new life in 3.2.1


One month ago today, my job was eliminated. It’s a prime example of be careful of what you ask for or you just might get it. My co-workers and I used to joke about getting paid to stay at home and guess what happened….

It’s a shocker for sure because i’d heard it happen and read of it happening but to see it actually happen in real time? Knocks you on your ass. There were a lot of technical issues that day, but we still didn’t think it was gonna be a Purge situation….

A month later to reflect and here’s the thing…you ready for it?  I don’t miss it, I met some great people but being cursed out on a daily basis for something I couldn’t fix was not my ideal work environment. While I wont bash the company I worked for those 2 years because hey I signed up for it and my bills were paid and it literally does me no good and it doesn’t make me feel better. That chapter of my life is done….

What’s next you want to know? World Domination *inserts* evil laugh. Honestly the world is open to me now in a way that I’d never felt before. Should I

  •  move overseas and teach English?
  •  try a new field that I’ve been interested in but scared to try (graphic design)
  • be a well paid (there’s a difference) sex-worker with clients across the globe
  • go full fledged actor+writer+creator and move to LA
  • go backpacking in Europe or Asia
  • create new content and study more while finding a job that pays well

I mean the list can go on and on and it’s all thanks to ?!*+%&=@!!!! You know who you are buddy. I’m gonna make sure that the next path I choose is not fear based. That I know for sure.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk

Marcus Caesar



So Much… #poetry


Too much going on, the news is depressing

Lord I think it’s time to send out some blessings

I try to stay away the headlines draw me in

I feel like my head is going to cave in

I don’t wanna be ignorant to the topics of the day

But boy oh boy I wish there was a way

To lift all the suffering and cure-all the pain

Yes my heart is pure, I only have this to gain

Knowledge that the world can take care of its own

Help each other when needed, be good spirits all around

Help in small pockets of the world can be found

Not everyone is corrupt, not everyone is out for themselves

But Lord oh Lord do we need your help. My daily prayer

consists of healing from Nepal to B’More and anywhere in between.

Put help where its needed send angels everywhere

let your love shine light on injustices and wrongdoings. I believe there’s a beating heart in

mankind we just need your push and wisdom to act and be divine.