comfortable shoes or none at all
noise canceling headphones
great big cojones
salt-n-pepa, robin s, cece peniston,
black box, to name a few….
start with the groove
drop down into the pocket
feel it in your veins
ignore everyone around
bend your legs, arch your back
don’t turn around, the past is wack…
rhythm is going to get you
catch you and never release you
if the rhythm feels good to you baby let me
hear you say uh uh baby
your inner child thanks you
coming, going, never knowing
sure there’s lust
but you can’t trust
I open my mind and heart
that’s where I’ll start
maybe one day?
shook up and scared
want to call someone
feels like no one cares
they say pray on it
don’t let your mind stay on it
easy for some, harder for others
mixed messages in media
i wanna use Expedia
to get away far away
fairy don’t you weep, you talented
kind, original blooming orchid
your tribe is waiting
anticipating, getting to know you
love and joy
for you are a gift to the world fairy boy.
take a breath
not the end of the world
learning, hoping, praying
what else can you do?
sitting, standing, lying down
the world still goes round
i’m searching, i’m contemplating
patiently waiting for
me to see what others see
bask in that glow
i’m not my thoughts
negative some(most) times they are
learning and growing
i’m yearning to who i am
forgiveness, grace, deep but buried
love shows as the crowd roars
sometimes love is poetry
writing thoughts out…hard
but when it comes a flowing
i loved myself today
One month ago today, my job was eliminated. It’s a prime example of be careful of what you ask for or you just might get it. My co-workers and I used to joke about getting paid to stay at home and guess what happened….
It’s a shocker for sure because i’d heard it happen and read of it happening but to see it actually happen in real time? Knocks you on your ass. There were a lot of technical issues that day, but we still didn’t think it was gonna be a Purge situation….
A month later to reflect and here’s the thing…you ready for it? I don’t miss it, I met some great people but being cursed out on a daily basis for something I couldn’t fix was not my ideal work environment. While I wont bash the company I worked for those 2 years because hey I signed up for it and my bills were paid and it literally does me no good and it doesn’t make me feel better. That chapter of my life is done….
What’s next you want to know? World Domination *inserts* evil laugh. Honestly the world is open to me now in a way that I’d never felt before. Should I
- move overseas and teach English?
- try a new field that I’ve been interested in but scared to try (graphic design)
- be a well paid (there’s a difference) sex-worker with clients across the globe
- go full fledged actor+writer+creator and move to LA
- go backpacking in Europe or Asia
- create new content and study more while finding a job that pays well
I mean the list can go on and on and it’s all thanks to ?!*+%&=@!!!! You know who you are buddy. I’m gonna make sure that the next path I choose is not fear based. That I know for sure.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk
Dreams are real, vivid productions, high quality writing. Making them come true could be the hard part, afraid to share your art never knowing if you could brighten someone’s day or save a life.
Stuck in the same place , to everything and everyone you know. The encouragement is there from your peers and everywhere but you can’t find it inside yourself, it’s like your deaf to your own praise.
Prayers and meditation that’s what they say, invest in your life, things work out great that way. I’ve been diligent in this practice all along but it’s not enough to make me strong. Strong enough to make that move, Pursue my dreams.
Life is always changing, I’m still holding on. I’ll have to do it and adjust later. I may fail which makes me shudder with fear, but what else do I do dear? Cry about it, sulk about it, whine about it. Will that make things better? I doubt it.