Tag: queer

Get Silly

comfortable shoes or none at all

new attitude

noise canceling headphones

great big cojones

salt-n-pepa, robin s, cece peniston,

black box, to name a few….

start with the groove

drop down into the pocket

feel it in your veins

ignore everyone around

bend your legs, arch your back

don’t turn around, the past is wack…

rhythm is going to get you

catch you and never release you

if the rhythm feels good to you baby let me

hear you say uh uh baby

your inner child thanks you

©️MarcusCaesar

In 💔 with your fav rapper

I had to getaway

the road was my muse

I refused to settle

i then met him

he paid my bills for a year

said anything you want my dear

don’t tell

it never fails

to go this route…

No feelings involved

he was my ticket here

he told me don’t worry

nothing to fear

against my better judgment

thought of him as my husband

and then everything went to hell

it started with needing bail

for what you say

I was dumb okay…

I should’ve never went announced

to be unexpected and he was undetected

was a problem for him

There was a fight

I tried with all my might

to leave him/it alone but

I felt beholden to him

saving my life in so many ways

but life needs to be golden for me

without him.

Lesson Learned

©️MarcusCaesar

you’re down? stay there bitch

work hard to keep it up the facade of being present

work to maintain, never show shame of all the things I’ve done in my past

I’ve asked forgiveness, hoping for a one way ticket out of this wilderness

July hasn’t been kind, messing with my mind. What If I wasn’t here?

Sorry Universe, this like gets/got me down, feeling like a clown

All the work I put into keeping the facade up, to see it come down

Cry myself to sleep, shout into a pillow, allowing myself to willow in the wind of disappointment

I’m not this, this is not me

You’re breaking me down, is it to build me up?

Please advise.

©️MarcusCaesar

couples therapy

I am sex

I am learning

I am mouthwatering

I am yearning

to share myself with you

not just fake you but all of you

I want to taste you

from your toes to your lips

and everywhere in between

Johnson in my mouth

there is no doubt

this is where I’m supposed to be

Taste her beaver

never would deceive her

I am open to it all

where you come from where I come from

It’s like a buffet many options

take your pick so that’s what I did

I am perfectly human

I of course know what I’m doing

make you both scream my name

Climaxes near

everything I hold dear

all over your body

you know my story

Now off to morning glory

Call time 11pm tomorrow night

don’t be late I wont bite

I’ll enjoy taking care of you both 💋

©️MarcusCaesar

stormi weather season

Feels like I’m in the rain

can’t see clear

every time I wipe my eyes something I hold dear

comes to a close

kissing up on my nose trying to keep the pain at bay

want to experience love want to experience success

want to be the best

pressure in my shoulder, I just wanna get over

Wanna fly away

start over begin a new day

life doesn’t work that way I want to be happy OK?

Just want it to stop raining so I can feel

peace.

In my heart in my home

sometimes I don’t want to do it alone

I push people away no wonder they don’t stay

I’m trying as hard as I can giving you the Best that I got

I wish these self-defeating behaviors stop

©️MarcusCaesar

personal holiday

“It’s time for the good times
Forget about the bad times, oh yeah
One day to come together to release the pressure
We need a holiday” – Madonna

on this day nine years ago, i revealed a personal truth to my parents

like pressure off your brain it was needed. My fam is low-key so it wasn’t the

biggest deal to them, but to me my world was a bit lighter . I’m proud. I’m blessed.

ups and downs both abound but I’m still trucking. Haven’t found my forever but

there’s hope. so while people celebrate the holiday of our fallen soldiers, i celebrate

the holiday of my fallen facade, lies I told to belong so long ago.

Selah’

©️MarcusCaesar

Untitled Part 503

why do you write poetry, sing that song, design those threads?

I was gifted brains that form words, lungs that power and a creative mind

I am a gift that keeps on giving, divine in my existence, lover of all

believe in yourself, myself, best self, forgive your worst self.

LIVE LIFE

©️MarcusCaesar