not my ally

my stories I pass

built to last

on to the new

tried and true

trying to move forward

my expectations are lowered

messing with some

keep my cards close

don’t want to ghost

but what else can I do

if you take my humanity

use it against me

and expect me to say nothing

not on my watch

clock keeps ticking

world keeps turning

who are you again?

©️MarcusCaesar

blooming onion

I’m over 40

don’t know where I’m going

don’t know when it will last

the agony of regrets in my past

each day I’m given

should be worth celebrating right?

adventure about to take flight

any day now

life is mine for the taking

I’m just making

excuses.

am i lazy or unmotivated

or both

gotta shake it off

more Mariah than Taylor

made for me

life, easy, breezy

by the horns

gonna make it

so it is and it is so.

here’s the show!

©️MarcusCaesar

about Jack

our eyes meet

i can’t speak

cats got my tongue

words caught naughty thought

can’t get you outta by brain

results are fresh

don’t want no mess

to home I go

remove my clothes

anything goes

new lease on life

must think twice about whom I bring home…….

©️MarcusCaesar

In 💔 with your fav rapper

I had to getaway

the road was my muse

I refused to settle

i then met him

he paid my bills for a year

said anything you want my dear

don’t tell

it never fails

to go this route…

No feelings involved

he was my ticket here

he told me don’t worry

nothing to fear

against my better judgment

thought of him as my husband

and then everything went to hell

it started with needing bail

for what you say

I was dumb okay…

I should’ve never went announced

to be unexpected and he was undetected

was a problem for him

There was a fight

I tried with all my might

to leave him/it alone but

I felt beholden to him

saving my life in so many ways

but life needs to be golden for me

without him.

Lesson Learned

©️MarcusCaesar

personal holiday

“It’s time for the good times
Forget about the bad times, oh yeah
One day to come together to release the pressure
We need a holiday” – Madonna

on this day nine years ago, i revealed a personal truth to my parents

like pressure off your brain it was needed. My fam is low-key so it wasn’t the

biggest deal to them, but to me my world was a bit lighter . I’m proud. I’m blessed.

ups and downs both abound but I’m still trucking. Haven’t found my forever but

there’s hope. so while people celebrate the holiday of our fallen soldiers, i celebrate

the holiday of my fallen facade, lies I told to belong so long ago.

Selah’

©️MarcusCaesar

bad ghey

oh no

what did you wear

not those skinny jeans

with the red hair

oh no

what are you watching

tell me that’s not really boxing

there’s rules to this if you’re gonna be true to this

oh yasss

sissy that walk

talk down on others who look nothing like you

flaunt your ego and listen to Madonna it’s true

only if you’re a certain type

oh yasss

no fats no fems

don’t believe the hype

shoot your shot, might be just your type

who are we kidding

the beautiful ones do the bidding

I’m just bitter, don’t mind me

ignore all constructs and just be free.

©️MarcusCaesar

fairy don’t you weep

shook up and scared

want to call someone

feels like no one cares

they say pray on it

don’t let your mind stay on it

coming out

easy for some, harder for others

mixed messages in media

i wanna use Expedia

to get away far away

fairy don’t you weep, you talented

kind, original blooming orchid

your tribe is waiting

anticipating, getting to know you

witness

love and joy

for you are a gift to the world fairy boy.


©️Marcus Caesar