
take as you need pt 8



1st time falling in love
everything wished
only wants to be friends.
©️MarcusCaesar

just hearing the music
lyrics personal or not
brightens my life
©️MarcusCaesar

what was said
just harsh
let’s breathe, think. then talk.
©️MarcusCaesar

Did I tell you when I was going to save the Fox network with my soap opera concept?Back in the 90s I wanted to write the next great American daytime soap opera to save the Fox network! Did the network need saving? Maybe or maybe not.
I would pull actors from the nighttime soaps and I would take the most popular characters that were written off the other soaps and invite them on my show. The show would feature storylines that focus on minorities and their lives.
See ABC, NBC and CBS had daytime dramas. Why not FOX?! I had a notebook full of storyline possibilities. I subscribed to the Soap Opera Magazines to know who was leaving their shows . To know what storylines were coming and ending. How could I improve upon what already had been done?
Then the 00’s hit and the networks started canceling the soaps one by one for talk shows and cooking shows and more news. I tossed my notebook to the side. There wouldn’t be anyone buying a daytime soap or even a nighttime soap if it didn’t include supernatural elements.
Today there are only 4 left. 1 on ABC, 1 on NBC and 2 on CBS. Not great, but what is good is that streaming channels have increased with channels all over the place who need content.

Shall I search for my notebooks from years ago and retool my concept? I have much knowledge that I didn’t have before . Is this my time to shine…..
Would you watch?
Manifesting greatness starting in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1….
©️MarcusCaesar

some say cold hearted
don’t ask questions
optimistic soulful vibe
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Do you see me in yourself ?
when you take my people’s rights
then wonder why we want to fight.
©️MarcusCaesar

my stories I pass
built to last
on to the new
tried and true
trying to move forward
my expectations are lowered
messing with some
keep my cards close
don’t want to ghost
but what else can I do
if you take my humanity
use it against me
and expect me to say nothing
not on my watch
clock keeps ticking
world keeps turning
who are you again?
©️MarcusCaesar

I’m over 40
don’t know where I’m going
don’t know when it will last
the agony of regrets in my past
each day I’m given
should be worth celebrating right?
adventure about to take flight
any day now
life is mine for the taking
I’m just making
excuses.
am i lazy or unmotivated
or both
gotta shake it off
more Mariah than Taylor
made for me
life, easy, breezy
by the horns
gonna make it
so it is and it is so.
here’s the show!
©️MarcusCaesar

growing up queer
didn’t see many like me around
is that why pictures from the past were of a frown?
the times have changed, thank god for that.
love to see it, the new generation
living and loving.
©️MarcusCaesar