It’s not my fault
I didn’t do it
I can’t take your pain away
my color of my skin
has nothing to do with the pain you’re in
write it out, muck about
don’t take out my
there’s another shooting
anger is brewing
when will it be enough?
we won’t lie down
no one gave us a crown
or a pedestal you put us on
you show your true colors but God sees above all others
justice will be swift
and you’ll deserve it
or haven’t you heard
it can be changed like this-
as i writes today
alas troubles aren’t so far away
put my head under the covers
life can bring such druthers
i need my peace
universe please hear me.
Roller coaster or screaming lady
it’s more than death
I see it as a rebirth
of the new you
the stress and pain of
scream it away
there’s hope its a new day.
-note to self
yearning , longing , stretching
for the thing that sets my soul on fire
is it a person, place or thing
river, cleanse my soul
ocean, wipe away my tears
lakes, purify my heart
why I love water
Quick! Tell yourself every bad thing.
Quick! Think of all the worse outcomes.
Quick! Now did it do any good?
Message to self, for our mental health.
The day was a bad day only cause i made it so.
I’ve yet to know how to let it flow.
Work in progress.
Trying to stay up emotionally
i don’t wanna be down
just wanna make it through
I’ve been told this too shall pass
work hard to keep it up the facade of being present
work to maintain, never show shame of all the things I’ve done in my past
I’ve asked forgiveness, hoping for a one way ticket out of this wilderness
July hasn’t been kind, messing with my mind. What If I wasn’t here?
Sorry Universe, this like gets/got me down, feeling like a clown
All the work I put into keeping the facade up, to see it come down
Cry myself to sleep, shout into a pillow, allowing myself to willow in the wind of disappointment
I’m not this, this is not me
You’re breaking me down, is it to build me up?