shambles

thinking of life

being envious

is not the move

help me lord

©️MarcusCaesar

where I am

i wish i may

i wish i might

think about all in my life

not right

dwell on the good

don’t know if I should

call and bother .

so much I’m thankful for

walking through the door

of my own apartment.

somethings missing

someone suggested a kitten

i don’t know about that

pray to the heavens

i don’t sleep 24/7

still much to accomplish.

©️MarcusCaesar

not my ally

my stories I pass

built to last

on to the new

tried and true

trying to move forward

my expectations are lowered

messing with some

keep my cards close

don’t want to ghost

but what else can I do

if you take my humanity

use it against me

and expect me to say nothing

not on my watch

clock keeps ticking

world keeps turning

who are you again?

©️MarcusCaesar

blooming onion

I’m over 40

don’t know where I’m going

don’t know when it will last

the agony of regrets in my past

each day I’m given

should be worth celebrating right?

adventure about to take flight

any day now

life is mine for the taking

I’m just making

excuses.

am i lazy or unmotivated

or both

gotta shake it off

more Mariah than Taylor

made for me

life, easy, breezy

by the horns

gonna make it

so it is and it is so.

here’s the show!

©️MarcusCaesar

luv 2 see it

growing up queer

didn’t see many like me around

is that why pictures from the past were of a frown?

the times have changed, thank god for that.

love to see it, the new generation

living and loving.

©️MarcusCaesar

amerikkkanized chaos

It’s not my fault

I didn’t do it

I can’t take your pain away

my color of my skin

has nothing to do with the pain you’re in

dude

write it out, muck about

don’t take out my

brother

there’s another shooting

anger is brewing

when will it be enough?

we won’t lie down

no one gave us a crown

or a pedestal you put us on

you show your true colors but God sees above all others

justice will be swift

and you’ll deserve it

or haven’t you heard

it can be changed like this-

*snaps fingers*

©️MarcusCaesar

freedom needed

you can put make-up on it

you can drink it away

you can be bi, straight or gay

the vessel is the same

learning to live in the now

not circle the drain

i want to forget my pain

©️MarcusCaesar

imposter

the person they see

when they look at me

who is that I wonder

depression please don’t take me under

fake it till I make it

persona cracked won’t break it

time to find my joy

one less lonely boy

©️MarcusCaesar

drained

so close to my dreams

can’t get close enough it seems

circling the pipes

nights I stay up

lonely, but don’t give a fuck

please inspire me

don’t know who I’m talking to

just hoped the message come through

I’m drained

need some relief.

©️MarcusCaesar

some holy night

this was the day

plans were made

you betrayed my heart

not okay

this was the day

we are to say our vows

how did I not see this before?

My life isn’t over

I wont shoulder this disaster

on my own

What does this mean?

I’m keen on letting you figure it out

©️MarcusCaesar