Tag: melancholy

you’re down? stay there bitch

work hard to keep it up the facade of being present

work to maintain, never show shame of all the things I’ve done in my past

I’ve asked forgiveness, hoping for a one way ticket out of this wilderness

July hasn’t been kind, messing with my mind. What If I wasn’t here?

Sorry Universe, this like gets/got me down, feeling like a clown

All the work I put into keeping the facade up, to see it come down

Cry myself to sleep, shout into a pillow, allowing myself to willow in the wind of disappointment

I’m not this, this is not me

You’re breaking me down, is it to build me up?

Please advise.

©️MarcusCaesar

stormi weather season

Feels like I’m in the rain

can’t see clear

every time I wipe my eyes something I hold dear

comes to a close

kissing up on my nose trying to keep the pain at bay

want to experience love want to experience success

want to be the best

pressure in my shoulder, I just wanna get over

Wanna fly away

start over begin a new day

life doesn’t work that way I want to be happy OK?

Just want it to stop raining so I can feel

peace.

In my heart in my home

sometimes I don’t want to do it alone

I push people away no wonder they don’t stay

I’m trying as hard as I can giving you the Best that I got

I wish these self-defeating behaviors stop

©️MarcusCaesar

fairy don’t you weep

shook up and scared

want to call someone

feels like no one cares

they say pray on it

don’t let your mind stay on it

coming out

easy for some, harder for others

mixed messages in media

i wanna use Expedia

to get away far away

fairy don’t you weep, you talented

kind, original blooming orchid

your tribe is waiting

anticipating, getting to know you

witness

love and joy

for you are a gift to the world fairy boy.

©️Marcus Caesar

Vessel Opening Pt 1

sitting, standing, lying down

the world still goes round

i’m searching, i’m contemplating

patiently waiting for

me to see what others see

bask in that glow

i’m not my thoughts

negative some(most) times they are

learning and growing

i’m yearning to who i am

forgiveness, grace, deep but buried

love shows as the crowd roars

sometimes love is poetry

writing thoughts out…hard

but when it comes a flowing

that’s love

i loved myself today

did you?

©️Marcus Caesar