what does healing look like
I need to see it
what does healing feel like
I want to feel it
what does healing smell like
I want to inhale it
what does healing taste like
I want to feel it on my tongue
I’m staying in prayer friends
Please keep me in yours
get home from work
mask off, playtime over
life isn’t supposed to be this way.
yearning , longing , stretching
for the thing that sets my soul on fire
is it a person, place or thing
crowned him smartass
made you laugh every time you passed
did you know he was hurting inside?
did you care to ask?
Quick! Tell yourself every bad thing.
Quick! Think of all the worse outcomes.
Quick! Now did it do any good?
Message to self, for our mental health.
The day was a bad day only cause i made it so.
I’ve yet to know how to let it flow.
Work in progress.
Sometimes you don’t have to ask
but the truth is universally told
like rain on a scorching hot day
needed but unwanted
but what do you expect they’re only kids.
work hard to keep it up the facade of being present
work to maintain, never show shame of all the things I’ve done in my past
I’ve asked forgiveness, hoping for a one way ticket out of this wilderness
July hasn’t been kind, messing with my mind. What If I wasn’t here?
Sorry Universe, this like gets/got me down, feeling like a clown
All the work I put into keeping the facade up, to see it come down
Cry myself to sleep, shout into a pillow, allowing myself to willow in the wind of disappointment
I’m not this, this is not me
You’re breaking me down, is it to build me up?
Feels like I’m in the rain
can’t see clear
every time I wipe my eyes something I hold dear
comes to a close
kissing up on my nose trying to keep the pain at bay
want to experience love want to experience success
want to be the best
pressure in my shoulder, I just wanna get over
Wanna fly away
start over begin a new day
life doesn’t work that way I want to be happy OK?
Just want it to stop raining so I can feel
In my heart in my home
sometimes I don’t want to do it alone
I push people away no wonder they don’t stay
I’m trying as hard as I can giving you the Best that I got
I wish these self-defeating behaviors stop
coming, going, never knowing
sure there’s lust
but you can’t trust
I open my mind and heart
that’s where I’ll start
maybe one day?
shook up and scared
want to call someone
feels like no one cares
they say pray on it
don’t let your mind stay on it
easy for some, harder for others
mixed messages in media
i wanna use Expedia
to get away far away
fairy don’t you weep, you talented
kind, original blooming orchid
your tribe is waiting
anticipating, getting to know you
love and joy
for you are a gift to the world fairy boy.